You know, I've had off and on depressive instances for a long time and recently they have been getting so much worse. I've nearly cried at work once or twice. I've given up on so much, especially my friends. When I need them the most they abandon me. When I need someone to help me I'm thrown away. I really do just want to stop existing. I hate moments like this where I cant stop crying. I wish I had never been born. I should have been aborted.